She Stands... Bold - Claire I'Anson
He used to be really into this series called ‘I shouldn’t be alive’, where someone is lost or injured in the wilderness and against all odds survived to retell their story. I did find this one a bit interesting although I had to look away at all the squeamish parts. Here were normal people - not professional explorers, warriors or mountaineers, just regular people like you and I who had to battle against extreme conditions in order to ensure their survival.
Despite their stories being vastly different, each of these survivors had one crucial thing in common - they were BOLD. They had grit. Their survival journeys weren't perfect - they all had their moments of panic or doubt where they collapsed in a heap and dreamed for the pain to end. But they soon realised that the time had come to quit crying, get up and keep going.
That's kinda my life at the moment! I feel as though for the last few years, I've been wandering the wilderness - those first moments of being lost - you're still enjoying the journey, it's a nice view (Port Macquarie is a nice place to get a little bit lost in!!) and you're pretty sure you can make it out ok. Not really being sure you know where you're going or where you fit, but kinda being ok with that as you muddle your way through.
Then this year, the panic started to set in. I don't think I'm going to make it! What am I going to do? I've lost my way - too many wrong turns and I'm not really sure how to get out of this mess and I'm just going to crumble into that heap. It came to a head for me not too long ago, when a door we had been praying for and desperately needing to be opened was shut - seemingly permanently. And to add insult to injury, that same week we had additional pressures heaped on us that made me want to stomp my feet and shout out to God "THIS ISN'T FAIR!!!"
And then - the wise voice of my husband cut through the rage. "Claire, our faith CANNOT be conditional." If I melt down and lose faith every time a door closes or every time we suffer a setback, what are we teaching our children about life? How will they navigate through trials if the example they have does the opposite? We need to brush ourselves off, trust God, be BOLD and get on with it - especially in the no, or in the not yet.
I'm still waiting. But now I'm waiting boldly. I'm finding my way out of the wilderness, with a really great Holy Spirit Guide helping me navigate through some of the tricky steps. Like God told Joshua: I’ll be with you. I won’t give up on you; I won’t leave you. Strength! Courage... Give it everything you have, heart and soul... Don’t get off track, either left or right, so as to make sure you get to where you’re going. And don’t for a minute let this Book of The Revelation be out of mind. Ponder and meditate on it day and night, making sure you practice everything written in it. Then you’ll get where you’re going; then you’ll succeed. Haven’t I commanded you? Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take.” (Joshua 1).
If you're feeling a bit lost, feel as though you're stuck in the wilderness and you're not sure how to navigate your way out, please remember that God's given you a spirit of power. And as Paul wrote to the Hebrews - Since God assured us, “I’ll never let you down, never walk off and leave you,” we can boldly quote, God is there, ready to help; I’m fearless no matter what. Who or what can get to me?"
Love Claire x